Hi everyone, remember me? Natalia? I used to blog around these parts quite often.
See, the thing is, back in October life decided to go full speed ahead, whether we were ready or not. We got a house that we needed to fix up. In November my husband, slowly but surely, got accepted to be a part of the 53rd Fire Academy for Ventura County to become a firefighter. I started coaching a club volleyball team and became somewhat of a single mom due to husband’s busy-ness.
It’s all good. Not one of those things I’ve listed are negative. We are beyond blessed to have a place to call our own. And God made it so clear that we were supposed to be here. Even though my husband is busy and the academy is extremely hard, we are SO BLESSED that he got that job and that they are training them well to become safe, capable firefighters. Coaching volleyball is a huge blessing because it adds a little income to help us out.
So why am I maxed out? Why do I feel like I could crumble? Why do some days (particularly the last week) end in tears from one or more of our little family? Because life, even in the best of times, is a lot!
I have been learning, albeit ever so slowly, that life is a journey. Never at one point will everything be perfect. You won’t have it all together all the time. Balls will be dropped and tears will be shed.
And you know what? That’s okay.
I am giving myself grace. I don’t have to be perfect. I don’t have to have it all together. I don’t have to manage my home perfectly. My kids will misbehave and I will have to repeat myself a million and one times.
And that’s okay. Hard? Absolutely. But it’s all part of this journey.
I have been really frustrated with my kids. They have a hard time completing tasks from start to finish without being reminded. They often break into fights in the middle of chores, sometimes for fun, sometimes not. They don’t always do what I ask right when I ask it and I often feel like a broken record. But you know what? I am gonna give them grace too.
I don’t mean let them get away with things. I am going to continue repeating myself and continuing making them do their chores and continuing disciplining when I need to. But they are just tiny little humans (well, mine aren’t very tiny) and if I, a grown adult, struggle with the same things time and time again, won’t my kids?
If I don’t tend to learn something the first time around and have to be reminded or go through something again to have it click, why wouldn’t they? Of course I have to repeat myself a million times! Of course I have a to tirelessly remind them to complete tasks, finish their chores and do their homework! And you know what probably the hardest part is? That it still might not click for them. All of our teaching and shaping at home might not click for our kids until they get into the real world. I have to be okay with that. I have to be okay that I am doing my best now, praying for them daily, and trusting that God will take over the rest.
All that to say, I am slowly but surely coming back to blogging. I love it here, I love my readers, and I love “talking” to you guys. But I’m giving myself grace to take my time and do it when I can. I’m giving myself grace to fail, shake it off, and get back up again. I am giving myself grace to be imperfect and it’s rather freeing!
Give yourself grace today! Didn’t finish the dishes? That’s okay! Still haven’t put away the Christmas decorations? You’re just really festive! Are your kids driving you crazy? Slow down, cuddle them a little tighter and give them a little grace too.